Every time I do something of this scale, I usually look back and write down what I got out of it. I was gonna write down and keep it to myself but, since I’ve spoken more about this experience here on tumblr, I thought I’d do this here as well.
This month has been something that I want to experience a lot more. It’s not that thrilling emotion, that adrenaline rush. I’ve gone through the most peaceful days I’ve experienced in my life. Considering I was recording none stop, editing video and sleeping 4 hours a day most of the times, no one would believe what I’m saying. There’s one reason for this: besides being prepared and organized, knowing exactly what I was going to do in each day, staying on track avoiding any time waste (sometimes skipping meals ^^; ) and being focused in what I was doing, I was loving every single second. Don’t get me wrong, recording and editing can be boring, there were nights at 2 am I’d say to myself: “it’s not a crime if I don’t finish this right now…” but right after that comment crossed my mind, I’d wake up and finish what I had to finish. I never had that in any other thing I did. So, this experience clear to me, what I really need to do. I can’t close my eyes to this since it’s so clear right now. Things are always easier said than done, that’s for sure but, I’ve got to do everything in my power to make it happen. Even though the last songs weren’t as successful as the first ones, I decided I wouldn’t let that bring me down. I really need to know where I did wrong and one of the clues I’ve got, it’s probably because all the way through the project, I always did the same thing and that bores people. I can’t tell if that’s the main mistake or if it’s a mistake at all, that’s why I need all the feedback I can get. And I mean honest feedback, I want to grow, I want to bring something unique!
Another thing I want to do, is be more present in the music world, be me. There’s a possibility with this project that I might do something live but it’s still uncertain and I don’t want to promise things I can’t do. I’m not one to do things half done, I want it all to be good and worth to listen. But, just like everything else I’ve been doing lately, this is all new to me and I don’t know for sure how things work, how to walk this path. I’m really in desperate need of guidance ^^;
For now… my voice really needs a break and I’m gonna give time for it to heal, the last songs we’re really hard and it became painful to sing because my vocal cords have been so sore ^^; That also made me take longer to record because I had no other option but to stop. I guess I also need to revise my vocal warm-ups. This week will be time to catch up, empty the e-mail box xD going back to running (went to the mini marathon today and I’m exhausted ^^; ) and I really need to get my piano studies in order, my poor teacher has been so patient with me ^^; if I was in her place, I’d strangle me xD
After this week… I’m thinking of new things to do. Yesterday, when I got back home from work at night, the first thing that got into my mind was: Hm.. I’ve got nothing to record today… I’ve got nothing to do. I was sad I didn’t have to goal I’ve had in the last month. Of course I won’t do a 365 days, 365 covers project xD but I need to keep myself busy with this so, I’m thinking of doing requested records and maybe do a cover every week. And maybe long after that, something original, who knows? There’re many possibilities :)
Once again, a huge thanks to everyone who followed this project, it means the world to me! I hope you’ll hear more from me soon :D